You deserve so much more than me.

It's time I stopped doing this to you, as much as I like you. I'm just not ready. It's as simple as that.

I really have nothing to say other than this;

I am happy. I am blessed. And I am living my life day by day. It's great.

Dear God,

I'm sorry I haven't been as faithful as I should be. I've strayed and gotten lost but you've always been here for me. I've always loved you and I always will. I'm sorry that I yell at you sometimes. I get angry. But I'm so thankful for my life on this earth. Please continue to guide and direct me where you want me. I love you.

Love, Erin.

Life

it's beautiful.
it's frustrating.
it's difficult.
it's amazing.
it's tiring.
it's magnificent.
it's boring.
it's splendid.
it's complicated.
it's wonderful.
it's different every day.
But the best thing about it is that it's yours. We each have one. Live it the way you want to. Live it so that you're happy. You deserve happiness. We all do.

I'm going to a Bra Store today. Lol.

And I'm on the site right now. It says;

"Bras are made generically. Women are not."

And then it goes on to her saying how she'll help find the right bra for anyone. So. I'm like really excited. That's probably a weird thing to be excited about but I don't care :)

I am so confused.

There's this one side of me that's screaming "Go for it!" You'll never know what could have been unless you try it, right?! He makes you feel so good about yourself, and you know you'd always be happy around him. He's so sweet, and genuinely cares about you. Forget about what other people would say! It's your life, not theirs.

..and then there's this other side,

No. It's just not the right time yet. If you don't feel 100% then why jump into a relationship? Mom says the point in dating is to find a husband for when you're ready to get married, and I'm not ready for THAT yet. I like being single. I like having my options open, but he's always been there. Don't jump into this and ruin your friendship.

UGH I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO