Going crazy...

My uncle lives with my family and I. I love him to death, but ever since he’s been living here- he’s been getting on my nerves. It’s been two years now and he has no job. He doesn’t pay for food, rent, cell phone bill, anything. I feel horrible because there’s this part of me that wants him to get out of my house and there’s another part that tells me he needs us. But the thing is, he’s the most ungrateful person I’ve ever known. He lives in the room next door to mine, so I can’t even play my music without worrying he’s going to get angry at me. He’s always swearing on the phone, and even says stuff about us thinking we can’t hear him. We’ve made huge sacrifices for him, and he doesn’t even care. We pay for pretty much everything aside from his car insurance, and he still feels the need to be rude and just flat out mean.

I feel bad for my parents because they’re both sick of all the nonsense, but can’t bring themselves to say anything. As for me, I used to consider him my favorite uncle. Now he lives with me and I never speak to him. Ever. It’s really sad. I wish he could get his act together. I hate coming home and feeling like a stranger in my own house. Things are SO awkward when it’s just me and him at home. Seriously, it shouldn’t be that way at all. He hogs the entire family room, so when I get home and just want to relax and unwind, I can’t go lay on the couch because he’s down there. Here’s the real kicker though; since he has no job, he does that all day. And when I’m home from a long day at school, I can’t even have some time to myself. I know it may sound silly and like I’m completely over exaggerating everything, but after two years of it- I think you’d get sick of it too.

I guess this was more of a rant. So…yeah. Sorry ‘bout that. I just needed to get it out of my system.

Corruption Number Two.

Girl #3 likes Boy #3.
Boy #3 is a crazy fool who doesn't know anything about life.
Girl #3 is going nuts due to the actions of Boy #3.

Conclusion- Boys are stupid.

Corruption.

Girl #1 likes Boy #1.
Girl #2 likes Boy #1.
Boy #2 likes Girl #1.
Boy #1 likes ...no one...?

I have great friends.

And I'm a very blessed girl because they all put up with my nonsense and I wouldn't trade them for anything else in the world.

Meer.

:) I love life right now. When I "meer", even though it may be annoying, you'll know I'm happy :)

Everything's Okay.

I need to stop telling myself otherwise. Yeah, there will be days where I sit here and cry but I’m fine. I’m alive, and I’m breathing. I’ll get hurt, but that’s life. Things will get better. I’m a very lucky person and I need to stop trying to convince myself otherwise. God’s got a plan for my life, and I know the way things play out now is only because He has a purpose for my life. Hello, positive new Erin :)

So last night...

I had such a great time. SUCH A GREAT TIME OH MY GOODNESS. I love country music. Mix that with some great people that, some of which, I haven't even met before, and you get an amazing night with some amazing and hilarious people.

I'm such a lucky girl, who's blessed with great friends. Whether it be sitting at someone's house watching a movie, or going to a Rascal Flatts concert, I always have an amazing time.

It all sucks though because I feel like I have like 10 different groups of friends. (Not really, that was totally exaggerated lol) But I feel like it. I hate it because when I hangout with one group, I always wonder what all my other friends are doing and if they're angry or upset I'm not there. I can't please everyone. I'm only one person. But I feel like there's something I need to do, and I'm going to do it. I realize that someone along the way, or multiple people, will confront me about it and think that I'm ditching my friends to hangout with other people but it's okay because I know that's not true. I know that I'm just doing this for ME. I want these people in my life, and I'm putting them there. I will always love every single one of my friends, and the ones that don't know that aren't really my friends I guess.

Well. Off to church.